Likely that this post isn’t exactly the inspiration you’re looking for. But it’s clear that you want to improve. I reckon it’s incredibly courageous of you to share with us your current stats, and that’s a sign of your commitment to improving. You’ve done the hard bit - signing up to TR and committing to a plan. Finding the motivation from within (i.e. setting yourself goals and holding yourself accountable to them) is the next step. All that’s left is it to smash it .
Grab a pen and paper, and answer the following questions with as much detail as possible:
- What do you enjoy about cycling?
- Why do you want to be faster/be stronger?
- How fast do you want to be?
- When do you want to do the full century?
When I’m feeling down about my ride, I think back to why I love this sport and am instantly motivated to get back on the bike. Also, I give myself rewards for hitting goals. This has helped motivate me to push harder and harder. Past rewards for me have been a box of Clif bars, a power meter, a TR yearly subscription. Can’t wait to reach my December goal - I’m getting myself a bike repaint!
Also, please be kind to yourself. I used to beat myself up for ‘being too slow’, and this sent me to the hospital about 2 years ago. I had been dropped on a group ride, and was in a negative headspace. I emptied the tank to try make it back to the group, but couldn’t make it. When we hit a big descent, I thought, “I’m way too slow. But here’s my chance to catch up!” and zoomed down as fast as I could. Next thing I remember, I woke up dazed and confused on the side of the road and was whisked to hospital. I now realise that it wasn’t “I’m too slow”, rather, “they’re too fast”. Two very different things.
I’m excited to read about your progress in the FTP improvements thread in the coming months. Keep on at it!