I don’t really like face to face combat like short XC. It seems so impolite to beat someone 
But I do feel good after if I feel I’ve pushed myself as hard as I can. So that’s what I do, reminding myself that I will feel good if I’ve done my best.
I like the adventure of 12 hour races, where I don’t always know my competitors utill we are standing next to each other on the podium 
(well that’s the plan).
And TT is obviously the ultimate in race yourself and as such is completely addictive.
So I am probably a competition avoidant competitor.
Beat that!