Hi everyone,
To begin, cycling is not my first sport. I have a background of running but have never actually been interested in competing in any races (I have ran marathons, but not competitively). I still have no desire to race, and I believe one of the reasons for this is the crippling anxiety I get from racing.
Over the years, I have read too much about how to structure training. Hard sessions, intensity distribution etc and have been following self made training plans for running. After all of this time, I have experienced bad anxiety before any harder training session but pushed on anyway.
Now I am injured, and have been since the start of the year. Physical activity is an essential part of my life for my mental and physical health, and ended up getting a turbo trainer earlier this year to cross train using the bike instead.
I began following TR programs to maintain as much muscular and cardiovascular fitness as possible, and still have the anxiety issue before each harder session. Even just sweetspot or tempo sessions give me this feeling and Iāve finally burned out and can no longer bring myself to do these sessions, leading to feelings of guilt and more anxiety.
I feel I need structure and know how to structure a good week of training. Every now and again, I get motivated to follow the structure, but the structure also seems to give me anxiety, burn me out and I end up giving up because of my mental issues.
Again, I am not interested in racing. I would like to be fit enough to ride long distances and take part in gran fondos etc without getting dropped. I feel I need structure, but in an unstructured way that doesnāt lead to these anxious feelings or burnout. I want to be able to train day after day without too much stress and fatigue.
I have tried just riding 2 hours a day for example, but end up feeling guilty that I could / should be pushing myself harder, doing intervals etc because of everything Iāve read and know about structured training, and how terrible it supposedly is to ride / train ākind of hardā every day.
Iāve tried to do what I enjoy. I like long, steady riding and climbing (longer climbs, not eye popping short vo2 efforts) , but Iām not sure how to plan my rides for the week. Would it be bad to climb every day for example? I feel like interval training wonāt be sustainable for me in the long term, especially since I just want to be able to stay as fit as possible and ride daily and enjoy it. Increasing ftp further would be nice, but only to make my daily riding and riding with groups easier.
Have any of you had similar experiences to mine or have any advice? Iām afraid to let go of such rigid, structured plans but at the same time feel they arenāt good for my mental health. Would I lose much fitness or be too fatigued riding for example 2-3 hours in zone 2 (with some z3) , 6 days a week? I know Iām likely over complicating things here.