I like where your head is at with this, I could probably use a dose of this perspective. Pacing, whether running, riding, or just at life in general, is not my strength. I’ll dig deep on a ramp test believing that I’ll be able to dig equally deep every workout, definitely not accounting for the accumulating effects of fatigue as time goes on.
I’m working on a longer timeline, when I evaluate my goals, and after my only A event of 2020 (unless it gets canceled, won’t know until May 4), my primary goal for this year is weight loss, and building muscular endurance. FTP gains will take care of themselves through consistency, but focusing on growing absolute power is a 2021/2022 endeavor.