I’ll preface my post with the fact that I’m a short, chunky guy - 170cm, 83kg, 26% bodyfat, not helped by the fact that most of the fat is carried around my abdomen (~100cm).
I’m on a weight loss journey, but it’s slow going. Definitely still fairly self-concious but improving all the time.
Now, I’ve wanted to get involved with racing pretty much since I got into structured training ~17 months ago but it’s easy to feel out of place among cyclists as it is, let alone in a competitive bunch.
Time trials, crits and road racing all interest me.
So I swallowed any pride or anxiety I had and took the plunge last night and showed up to the local evening time trial, which went great - 1st Road bike, 6th overall out of a field of 14. Happy with my effort, 267w NP for 23mins, my 2nd best 20min power with plenty left to go faster in future I think! I’m hooked and just want to do more now.
But despite being fairly thick skinned, the looks and the comments nibble away. I had a guy ask me if I’ve got any riding experience, I had sympathetic looks before the event and looks and remarks of disbelief after, one guy checking out my bike in detail, a guy asking me if I’m certain I’ve never raced before etc. (like I might have forgotten )
While I find satisfaction in being the underdog/surprise result, I continue to feel out of place and aprehensive in persuing this new buzz. I’m sure a portion of it is in my head but throw in a little social awkwardness for good measure and there’s enough discomfort to make me question the fun side.
I guess the point of this post was to look for other people’s experiences, good or bad, whether you stuck with it and how you found it?