@aroeck I get it. I think the same. However, now that I’m a bit older, I’ve realized…
Standing on the podium is lonely if there is no one to share the journey with. One day we will all be either too old or injured/medically unable to do this. It’s a gift to some degree. So, while you are young enough, healthy enough, go forth and kick ass while you are still able. If you miss the podium or your expectations believe me no one cares but, you. It really is about the journey. As has been said, there is a ton of learning to be had from B and C races. Nutrition, pacing, hydration, equipment. Use this opportunity to be smarter for the A event. Enjoy the ride.