Thank you all for your kind suggestions, and I have been thinking about changing career, but I think I will try to take the advice and try to improve my skill sets and make myself more valuable to the company.
Recently, I have been trying to talk with my team as things are stressful for everyone, and the communication between team members have been rather pointing fingers and not being very efficient. we lose our team members very often as they lose interests in working for a company where members are feeling judged and condemned when they speak out.
I noticed that this is happening because of expectations of managers and members are not aligned. This is the case because we are not communicating effectively and not listening to each other. hence, the pointing fingers are happening.
I was playing the victim for way too many years, so I decide to change and provide suggestions. Currently, we are using zoom to have semi-daily calls at 9 am and 4 pm. We often get, “that’s not good enough” attitude from the project manager. I talked with him with the issue and his intent is to:
- Share today’s agenda/target/goals from each member
- If the agenda is not aligned with PM’s expectation, he wants to communicate with them to adjust the expectation
- He does not want to hold everyone’s time so he wants a quick discussion and if necessary he wants to talk offline with people who are involved with the issue.
- at the same time, he wants everyone to chime in and listen to others so that if similar issue raise, then we have a way to solve that issue.
This was the original intent, but over time things get escalated and sometimes 3 and 4 were contradicting each other. The PM gets upset sometimes when things are not going as he wants so he tend to streamroll everyone. This is the issue…
I am just an engineer and I am not in management position, but I am slowly talking with everyone in semi-daily calls that things needs change. I proposed to have a team building activities at lunch time. In the activities, I will talk about what we make for 5 minutes and 15 minutes of Q&A, and also just talk about what we like about the presentation and what else we want to learn for 10 minutes. Base on the feedback, I will think about another 5 minutes talk, and repeat the process. The topic will be what we do 101 and I am planning to record the videos and save them in the server. Now, we have materials that company can use to train new hires. We often don’t have time to train new people, and based on the trainer’s ability, the result of the training quality is not consistant.
I am sure once I make the video and edit them, many people would express their opinion about how I should edit it. This is a win-win situation.
In this process, I can gain the following:
- Public speaking skill
- Writing skill
- Listening skill
- Team building skill
- People management skill
- Creating a training program(s) for the company
Engaging with people makes me happy, and I was not doing that before. I wanted to leave the company because I was miserable at work for 8 hours a day and felt like I was wasting my time. Now, I understand myself better that helping others and giving hands to those who need help gives me tremendous joy! I did not have hope in this company before, but now I have some hope. Hopefully, I can keep doing this until I get stopped by external force, but that’s ok. because by the time, I have gained so much skill, and I can now own this new skill set.
Thank you all for reading so far!!